VIH

HIV has impacted my day-to-day life since I devoted my life to basic research about the virus. At the moment I am a PhD student in the National University of Mexico (UNAM), close to fulfilling the requisites for graduation, I do my research in the centre of research in infectious diseases (CIENI). It is a laboratory that belongs to the Ministry of Health.

HIV cure is the career focus of many scientists around the globe. It is essential to join minds and efforts in order to find strategies that could lead us to this elusive goal. Being a gay man growing in a third world country where stigmatization strongly affects the perception of HIV disease, I started my scientific career with the aim of contributing with knowledge that could someday lead to HIV cure. It is a motivation for me knowing that I can contribute to this goal, when I have been around young men that leave themselves to die of AIDS in my country because of stigmatization, ignorance and fear.

My research at the moment is contributing with knowledge on a model where two selective pressures (antiretroviral therapy and the immune response) could converge to limit HIV variation and replication. I have been able to find widely spread responses to HIV peptides that include drug resistance mutations, that could be included in therapeutic vaccines used in cure strategies such as the “kick and kill” approach to HIV control or the pharmacologic-immune control of HIV replication. I’ve already submitted the paper regarding this research. If accepted, it will mean a successful contribution to the field.

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This is the first in the series of interview prompt responses detailed earlier at Our Viral Lives. These prompts are intended to allow people to take time to think about HIV/AIDS without the direct pressure of an interview situation. These same people might be interviewed and recorded in a more complete way at a later date. These entries are edited only for certain punctuation and spelling errors. Otherwise, they are left as the author originally wrote them.


I’ve been living with HIV since 2013. After a long year living in Madrid, I came to México to get diagnosed with HIV. I remember that day as one of my worst days in my life, full of fear. Even though I’m living a very healthy life being undetectable, HIV is full of fear and prejudices that can end up in a depression and anxiety symptoms, like me. Living in México City life as a young gay men living with HIV sometimes has to be in silence for being afraid of rejections. Profound relationships can be hard to handle and the way you manage your sexuality sometimes is like peeling an onion, you might cry discovering your true sexual being, taking out all your beliefs.

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Vivo con VIH desde el 2013. Después de vivir un año Madrid, regresé a México para ser diagnosticado con VIH, recuerdo ese día como uno de los peores en mi vida, lleno de miedo. Aunque vivo una vida muy sana siendo indetectable. El virus esta lleno de miedos y prejuicios que pueden terminar en depresión o síntomas de ansiedad, como fue mi caso. Viviendo en la Ciudad de México como un joven gay portador de VIH algunas veces puede ser en silencio por el miedo a ser rechazado. Relaciones profundas  pueden ser difíciles de manejar y la forma en la que manejas tu sexualidad algunas veces es como pelar una cebolla, puedes llorar en el descubrimiento de tu verdadera identidad sexual, quitando todas tus creencias.